Kelabu

Tentang aku,kamu dan perasaan kita..
Kelabu...sepertinya kata yang tepat....
Ketika itu,,hari ini,,dan nanti....
Tak pernah sama..tak bisa ditebak...
Mencoba mencari,,tak ubahnya hanya harapan kosong...
Antara ada dan tiada...
Kamu......masih kamu....tak ada yang lain....
Beritahu aku jika kau sudah tau apa yang kau inginkan...

@ Bandengan Beach, Jepara..

@ Bandengan Beach, Jepara..

..when the rainbow become black...

..since i was a little girl,,i always waiting for rainbow coming coloring the sky...
i always waiting until the rain stop falling..so i can see a beautiful rainbow in the sky...
sooo,,,,beautiful........;)

..i sit in my chair and sing a beautiful song...wishes a rainbow coming to me and make me smile....
i wait until the sky changes to a orange color...until a black sky becoming night....
yea,,maybe i can't see a beautiful rainbow anymore...

..friend..

.someday,,when i sit alone in my room,,i was thinking who gonna sit in my side..listen my story,,give me advice,,and hold my hand when i feel sad...
all of my curious has been answered...
friends....all that i need is friend...someone who care of me,,smile when i'm happy,,cry when i'm sad,,and hold me tight when i'm crying....
she's the one who know me,,and always understanding what i want... 
..sometimes i think that i don't wanna lose my friend,,i think i can't stay alone without my friend...
but i can't deny when i must stay alone without my friend anymore....
i feel like i don't wanna stay in here anymore...i don't wanna stay here without my friend...coz they are my energy...

..one day,,my friend told me that she must go on...i'm swear that i can't fell my body anymore...i feel that my body pieces has go away....i wanna told her to stay for a while...but i can't stopped her step to catch her dreams...she has a long future...and i gonna be happy when i can see she got a success....
go run friend,,,run and got everything u want....i'll stay here and waiting your good news...
--well,,,she step out from her room...brought a big bag and walked slowly...i saw her move,,and stopped her step when she came outside my room...she say goodbye,,and kissed me..i just can't say anything...i can't believe that she'll go so fast...so i can't stop my tears anymore,,,when i saw her face so sad...i really can't accept this...i can't see a sadness in her face...please god,,help me....;(

____ok,,,maybe i'm so childish...i just let her go away..i stuck in my room like a fool...i cannot see her anymore...i run to my bed,,,and absolutely crying so hard.... .... .....
a lot of thing that i got from friendship...
so,,before u lose ur friend...love them,,,care of them,,,coz u never know how important a friend in your life before u lose them.....

***for my LoveLy friend***

..Madem0iselle Butterfly....

Butterfly

When Butterfly was ten, her family sold her to the geisha house, Hanano Okiya, to gain money to feed the family. Her hometown is in the North-East region of Japan and her family includes a mother, father, grandmother, older brother, younger sister and a younger brother who passed away before she was sold. Upon moving to Hanano Okiya, she was looked after by the older girls working there who watched over her like a younger sister. Ever since she was a child living in Hanano Okiya, she always played with Chinatsu Fukuzawa, a tattooist who lived behind the geisha house. She also had a long time crush on Chinatsu as well.

She worked as a geisha-in-training until, one day, she was purchased by a rich foreigner that was one of Chinatsu's customers for 3500 yen ($300) when she was 15-years-old. Later on, when she revealed her true feelings to Chinatsu, and he realized his own feelings for her too, he bought her from the foreigner.
After this happened, she moved in with him and stopped working as a geisha-in-training.

Chinatsu Fukazawa

Chinatsu became a childhood friend of Butterfly when she moved into Hanano Okiya, a geisha house behind to where he lives. Butterfly had always had a crush on him ever since she met him for the first time as a child. Although he always thought of her as a little sister, eventually he realizes his true feelings for her.

He makes a living as an "underground" tattoo artist because tattooing is illegal during the Showa era. He is usually seen doing He is the son of a famous painter in the story named Fukuzawa Seishuu and has an older half-brother named Akie. Chinatsu began living alone and became a tattooist when he ran away from home as a teenager.


As the story develops, Chinatsu marries Butterfly and in the middle of her pregnancy he is drafted off to war. While a soldier at war, he becomes a father of twin baby girls.

let's talk about harajuku style...

Harajuku is an area between Shinjuku and Shibuya. Local landmarks include the headquarters of NHK, Meiji Shrine, and Yoyogi Park.

The area has two main shopping streets, Omotesandō and Takeshita Street (Takeshita-dōri). The latter caters to youth fashions and has many small stores selling Gothic Lolita, visual kei, rockabilly, hip hop, and punk outfits, in addition to fast food outlets and so forth.

The term "Harajuku Girls" has been used by English-language media to describe teenagers dressed in any fashion style who are in the area of Harajuku. This fashion infuses multiple looks and styles to create a unique form of dress. The cyber-punk look takes its influence from gothic fashion and incorporates neon and metallic colors. However, many in Tokyo admit it isn't as popular today as it once was.

Punk style in Harajuku is more of a fashion than a statement. Its fashion mainly consists of dark colors, plaid, chains, and zippers. Punk style is also one of the more gender-neutral fashions in Harajuku.

Ganguro is a style that symbolizes the average American teenager. The term translates to ‘black-faced’. The basic look is what Westerners would call a ‘California girl’, with bleached hair, dark skin, fake eyelashes and nails. It is not clear how Ganguro came to be. Many assume it originated in the early 1990s, when singer and performer Janet Jackson was popular.

Cosplay is more of a costume-based style. A cosplay enthusiast will usually dress as a fictional or iconic character from a band, game, movie, anime, ormanga.

Ura-Hara is another section of Harajuku, which caters to a mostly male population interested in a hip-hop, graffiti, and skater fashion and culture. Ura-Hara is seen as the opposite of Harajuku in that it’s more hidden and reserved.

In addition to Harajuku is its counterpart, known as Visual Kei. this refers to the style of bands and their fanbase. The term Visual Kei literally means a ‘visual style of music’. The melodies of the music these bands perform often resemble eighties rock, heavy metal, or techno; in some cases, the sound is a good mix of the three. The fashion began in the 1980s, when American metal bands were popular. Japanese fans loved how their idols would dress frantically and paint makeup wildly on their faces, so they began to emulate their style. This mimicking is also known is costume play, or cosplay.

chocolate addicted..

             one thing that i never knew why...i really love chocolate very much..so i'll try to know what is chocolate,,and why this food made me addicted...
             ok,,firstly i wanna try to describe what is chocolate..chocolate is came from cacao beans which come from a large pod that grows on a tropical tree. These beans are roasted, shelled, and ground into a paste. The cacao paste is mixed with sugar and cooked at a high temperature to make chocolate..
             People love chocolate. Each American eats almost 12 pounds of chocolate per year. There are many different types of chocolate such as milk chocolate, dark chocolate, and white chocolate.
              well,,i think we must know about the history of chocolate it self..

History Of Chocolate

600 AD -	Mayans migrate into northern regions of South America  establishing earliest known cocoa plantation.
1519 -	Spanish explorer Hernando Cortez recorded the cocoa  usage in the court of Emperor Montezuma in the  form of a beverage called 'Chocolatl'.  The fact that Montezuma consumed large quantities  of Chocolatl before entering his harem led  to the belief that it was an aphrodisiac
1544 -	Dominican friars took a delegation of Kekchi Mayan nobels to visit Prince Philip of Spain.  The Mayans brought gifts jars  of beaten cocoa, mixed and ready to drink.  Spain did not export the beloved drink to the rest  of Europe for nearly a century.
1585 -	First large shipments of cocoa beans began  arriving in Seville. The Spanish roasted and  ground the beans down to make chocolate  powder which they then exported across Europe. The chocolate powder was then used to make the European version of Montezuma's Chocolatl drink.  Although the Spanish did their best to keep the source  of the chocolate powder a secret eventually  the word got out and with that the Spanish  monopoly of the chocolate trade ended.
1657 -	The first chocolate house was opened by a Frenchman.  The shop was called The Coffee Mill and Tobacco Roll.  Costing 10 to 15 shillings per pound, chocolate was  considered a beverage for the elite class.  None but the extremely rich could afford to drink Chocolatl. It was so valuable in fact that it was even used as a currency.
1674 -	Eating solid chocolate was introduced in the form  of chocolate rolls and cakes, served in chocolate emporiums.
1730 -	Cocoa beans had dropped in price from $3 per lb. to being within the financial reach of those other  than the very wealthy.
1732 -	French inventor, Monsieur Dubuisson invented  a table mill for grinding chocolate.
1795 -	Dr Joseph Fry of Bristol, England,  employed a steam engine for grinding cocoa beans,  an invention that led to the manufacture of chocolate on a large factory scale.
1828 -	The invention of the cocoa press, by Conrad Van Houten,  helped cut prices and improve the quality of chocolate  by squeezing out some of the cocoa butter and giving  the beverage a smoother consistency.  Conrad Van Houten patented his invention in Amsterdam  and his alkalizing process became known as "Dutching".
1874 -	Joseph Fry & Son discovered a way to mix some  of the cocoa butter back into the "Dutched"  chocolate and added sugar, creating a paste  that could be moulded.  The result was the first modern chocolate bar.
1849 -	Joseph Fry & Son and Cadbury Brothers  displayed chocolates for eating at an exhibition  in Bingley Hall, Birmingham, England..
1857 -	The ambitious Swiss, Jean Neuhaus, left his native  city of Neûchatel and set himself up in the  Belgian capital, Brussels.  Later that same year, with his brother-in-law, a pharmacist, he opened his "first pharmaceutical  confectioners" at 25-27 Galerie de la Reine,  Europe's first covered shopping gallery.  Jean Neuhaus made cough sweets, liquorice for stomach complaints  and bars of bitter chocolate. This was the beginning of the Neuhaus history of chocolate.
1868 -	John Cadbury mass-marketed  the first boxes of chocolate candies.
1876 -	Daniel Peter of Vevey, Switzerland,  experimented for eight years  before finally inventing a means of making milk chocolate for eating.
1879 -	Rodolphe Lindt of Berne, Switzerland,  produced a more smooth and creamy chocolate that melted on the tongue.  He invented the "conching" machine.  o conch meant to heat and roll chocolate in order to refine it.  After chocolate had been conched for seventy-two hours  and had more cocoa butter added to it, it was possible  to create chocolate "fondant"  and other creamy forms of chocolate.
1912 -	Following Frédéric's death his son  Jean Neuhaus Junior took over the reins  of the burgeoning and extremely successful business.  Because of this success, he was able to follow a more creative path.  After months of experimentation  with a new technique which he had developed,  Jean finally achieved his goal and created  the world's first filled chocolate,  which he named "Praline" -  a real milestone in chocolate history.  His new invention brought about a revolution,  and not only for his business!
1913 -	Swiss confiseur Jules Sechaud of Montreux  introduced a machine  process for manufacturing filled chocolates.
1978 -	The Neuhaus company was taken over by brothers  Jean-Jacques and Claude Poncelet.  Their objective was clear.  They wanted to make Neuhaus a world famous brand  with which they could capture the international market.  Even more Neuhaus shops were opened in the United States,  Canada, Japan, Colombia and Guadeloupe,  as well as in most European capital cities.
1991 -	Neuhaus became the absolute market leader  in the luxury praline sector in Belgium and Luxembourg  and has retained this enviable position by further  developing its home market.  Thanks to a well-defined marketing strategy and  an international network of nearly 2,000 sales outlets,  more than 2,400 tons of Neuhaus products are sold anually in 50 countries.
2000 -	His Majesty King Albert II bestowed upon Neuhaus  the title of Accredited Supplier to the Belgian Crown.